New Years Resolutions

I do not like the idea of New Years resolutions.  Maybe just in the sense of "now that the year is ending lets pick something to change!" Why do you need an old year ending and a new year beginning to think about what you want to change, do better, stop doing, do more of, do less of...or just do.  If you want to change something just change no matter what the day, week, month or year.  Don't wait until the year changes.  Yup that’s me being preachy…I tend to be preachy…even though I’m not a preacher.  (as in…that’s not my profession.  My current profession is being a stay at home mom.  Never thought I would work this hard for free.  Off on a tangent again…that’s me!  Well obviously since it's my blog)

But what I do like is when New Years rolls around it gets me to reflect on the past year and think about what I have learned, how I have grown or regressed and to continue to be the best person I can be, continue to recognize my faults, and continue to change what I don’t like to make room in my life for what I do like. I'm always trying to do the right thing....always.  It's exhausting! :) 

What this year has taught me...and more importantly what I take away and what I have learned. So here goes...top 20 (I'm sure I could write a lot more)

1.  I need to take time for myself.  After taking care of everyone and everything I am left empty most days.  Now before you judge and say but look at all that you have and who you have in your life you should feel full and blessed.  While those statements are true I also feel empty because who is taking care of me?  no one.  

2.  I've learned that being a mother to two children is far more crazy, lovely, fun, and chaotic than I could have ever imagined.

3.  I now understand why women have kids and then go back to work after 6 weeks.  They need a freaking break!

4.  One drink (after not drinking for over a year) can leave you with a slight hang over in the morning.  Pathetic.

5.  I need to be more true to myself.  In things I say and do.  I am too much of a people pleaser.  It's good to a certain extent of course, but when it stops me from being 100% me, it's not so pleasing any more.

6. The truth will always set you free.  It truly will.

7.  I have far more in common with people than I thought.  You aren't ever the only one that thought it, felt it, did it or lived it.

8. Sometimes I feel like two people.  The person who I currently am and the person who I am always trying to be.  I wish I could just live 

9. Sometimes I wish I was more cool.  Not as in my temperature.  Because I'm pretty sure my blood circulating 

10. I like to write. No I LOVE to write.  And I don't do it enough.

11. I like to eat...especially food that is not good for me.  Sometimes it just tastes so good.

12. I need to relax.  I bet if we finished our bathroom I could take advantage of the soaker tub...that would be relaxing.

13. I shouldn't take myself so seriously.  

14. I am a good mother and I hope my children agree with me.  Even though I don't always feel like I'm doing a good job.  

15. It's okay to not always have a plan.

16. Good friends are my medicine.  I'm so thankful for all my good friends.  

17. My journey to find God and a spiritual world that I feel comfortable in believing in might always be a process but one that I'm now willing to explore.

18. It's okay to be wrong.  It's even better to admit when you are.

19. Family is my rock.  It's my foundation.  It's my everything.  

20. There is no getting around it...I need to exercise more than I do.  Exercise = a good 1 hour counseling session for my current mental state.

21. I have OCD about how my house looks.

22. My new mantra is the serenity prayer: "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference." And even though I'm not an alcoholic (mainly where you see this prayer used) it applies to my life in so many ways.  

okay so I wrote more than 20.